Intro and occasion at a workshop:

You will wear amulets and images of the divine as long as you refuse your own divinity. One day, you take them off and waves of sadness roll over and through you. This is the pain of home-coming, the joy to be back home, finally to be deeply yourself again. Because once you touch your own divinity within you, you are deeply affected, as you were separated from this ONE HEART for a very long time.

Meditation

I open my heart wide, open myself, do not fear the currents, which want to flow now. I breathe self-god-force, deeply being God and Goddess here and now myself and allowing this force to circulate within me.

I breathe vertically – into the highest spheres of the creative light above and into the deepest spheres of the creative dark below.

I allow all images of the divine from the light and the dark realms to flow into my heart – and in this way return back into myself once more. I let go of the power of all shapes and patterns, amulets and trinkets, pictures and idols of my life. I release with love and gratitude what gave me value and worth as long as I did not give those to myself.

I have arrived at the end of my path with these forms and aids and I decide now to take them off, as I no longer need their help. I release them gently and open irrevocably the universe of my own relevance.

At the end of time I look out into the earthly spheres and I see powerlessness and emptiness. And at exactly this time, I rise with great respect for myself, with great regard for my power – and a gigantic wave of compassion washes my life onto new shores.

This is the moment when Spirit rises within me and opens might, abundance and perspective. And so is the pain, which I feel at the end of time, not the lost abundance, yet the returning – not the lost, yet the returning worth, not the lost, yet the resurrecting divinity within myself.

I open my heart wide, move inside it with my next breath, decide and say the one word:

“YES! I AM NOW HERE!”

I AM is the human word for the divine self.

NOW is the cosmic time – timelessness without a split in the heart, merged past and future in my present.

HERE is the cosmic space – spacelessness without a split inside my heart, merged worlds without beginning and end – within myself.

I AM NOW HERE – and allow the divine time- and spacelessness to resurrect within my heart, at the very crossing point of my life where the cross turns into an orb and the dust into a crystal.

I AM NOW HERE – and allow myself the return into Spirit and Spirit to move into my body. YES. I AM NOW HERE.

I breathe deeply and let go again as it is achieved.

It was a question of a decision, I had to take, a question of dignity for myself, a question of unconditional love for myself.

Now it is a question of time and patience, of trust and free flowing. I neither hold on to pain nor the will for enlightenment, neither onto happiness and love nor pain and rage.

I simply allow ALL to flow freely as the nature of my new body and consciousness, the crystalline nature of our new age, consists of the complete mergence of darkness and light.

The love of the darkness and the wisdom of the light merge into a crystalline love-wisdom of the planet and the cosmos. And I will breathe and travel between these love- and wisdom-worlds, communicate and launch businesses – businesses of love and wisdom.